I dunno.... sometimes I'm ok, sometimes I'm not. I don't seem to get better, I can't seem to get better... I still have many personal problems... Im not good enough, not Thin enough...

I know Im wonderfully and Fearfully made... but sometimes its just not that easy to get rid of those thoughts of insecurities and fears....

I'm quite afraid of the Future... I don't know how will it be like... I've gone thru alot in the past... will my Future ever get better?....

I can only Trust my Future in God's hands... God has a great Destiny for me... Life still have to go on...

Its very True that you are the person you are Today due to your Past, your roots, and what you have gone through... Truely my past have shaped the person I am today...

Sometimes its hard to walk out of it... There will always a part of me living in the shadow of my Past....

But I hope, and I Believe, I will be able to see the light one day... I will not give up... because There are many more things I want to do in life.. I want to serve God more and do greater things for the Kingdom of God.... +

And... Thanks Dear... for always being there for me, always loving me, and always believing in me... I wouldn't know what to do without you... Though you very fierce to me sometimes... lols...

There are many things in the future I wouldn't know... but one thing I know... is that my love for God, and my love for him... will never ever die. And I also know, even if everyone else forsake me, God will never forsake me....

Dear... although I may have my own uncertainties and insecurities at times... you never gave up on me... I really hope you will keep to what you said and promised me...

The trip to Genting was quite fun... spend the 5 days playing the thrill rides at the indoor theme park, shopping, singing kbox, play arcade, sat the monorail and cable car, looking at scenery etc...

But we didn't play the outdoor rides.... cuz it was very very cold and I couldn't take it... I go outdoors awhile I already shivering like crazy....lols...

In our hotel room there was no aircon but it was still very very cold! Cuz we were up in the clouds and the temperature was colder than aircon... lols... at night I didn't sleep very well cuz it was so cold... I miss my bed, my room , my home!! lols.....

The indoor thrill rides were fun... me and my sis played bumper car, 3D motion master, Euro express thrill ride, ferris wheel etc... and we sneaked out to play the outdoor rides.... haha the person at the counter didn't even notice!! Lols... but we played 2 games then it started raining le.... so sad.... =(

We also played The Flying Coaster at the outdoor theme park... it was so scary but exciting and thrilling!! Me and my sis screamed very loud lols..... it was as if we were flying.... haha....

5 days passed very fast.... though there were nothing much to do but it was fun.... but I felt like going home cuz I miss my bed and I miss dear dear! lols....

I feel that the best thing is not the fun but the time spent with my family.... cuz usually all of us are very busy with our own lives and sometimes I hardly talk to my parents at home also.... but I also feel very sorry cuz I lost my temper a few times in Genting... sorry mummy...

Sigh... dunno why my parents quarrelled and fought so badly yesterday when we came home from Genting.... sigh... I also used to it le... last time I also everyday fight and quarrel with my parents and got beaten up... Haiz.... hope things will be ok soon....

Now Im back home, I quite miss Genting..... lols.... but I miss CG and church!! And Im happy cuz I can be with my dear dear again.... <33

At first my mum wanted to bring us go Taiwan.... but in the end never.... so end up going Genting instead... lols.... =(

Dear... I will miss you! Must take good care ok... I will be back soon! 5 days very fast over de... Remember... we are far apart in distance but never in our Hearts... Love you loads... Take care... Muacks. <3

Oh and btw... I miss Camp X!! ='(

BYEeeeee! Loves~x3

Rise and Shine! Didn't really sleep well... After breakfast we went to Riverwalk for " Women's and Men's workshop"... the session was catered only for girls... the session with Yilun was very good... she preached on how to handle the hurts in our life.... It made me think of my past... =(

At the end she gave an altar call and I went forward... Tears kept flowing as she prayed for me and I fell under the power of God... so Touched and refreshed after the session! I like Yilun too... She's my inspiration! =)

After that we had a make up session... Jace came to teach us how to put on make up... wah the last time she came to teach us was 1 year ago! She taught us how to put on fake eyelashes... and she demonstrated on Nicole... and Nicole's eyes became even BIGGER...o.O.. lol... but I was very sleepy... kept dozing off.... =( zZz...

After that was lunch and then we played the game "The Apprentice" It was very fun... we had to go around asking strangers to give us any amount of money after we performed for them... we did chicken dance, sang... and most of the money that we earned is cuz Wes did Pushups for the strangers... haha yea He's the man! =)

In the end we earned $78!!! Wow its such a good way to earn money... haha... we lost to the other team by $2... and if we didn't buy the sweets we would have won! =( After the game, we went to buy flowers for the people in the beauty pageant... there are 5 pple in our INCREDIBLES Team thats in the pageant!! They are Hui Mien, Xiao Hui, Kas, Weiliang, and Ben! Woohoo!

Actually alot of pple asked me join cuz I have the looks.. but Im very shy... Next time if I have the confidence I will sure join... =) The girls are all from my sister's CG and they are all very pretty.... I know they will sure win!!

After that we took bus to Cuppage Plaza at Orchard Road... then we changed at the toilet... The praise and worship at 'Haute Couture' was great! Exactly like a rockstar concert! =) The beauty pageant was very cool.... the girls in our house all so pretty... and they did well!

Xiaohui won 3rd place, Hui Mien 2nd, and Kas was the winner!! Woohoo!!! They are all from our house!! Yeah! =) I like Hui Mien! I think she very pretty.. =) Weipin won the best dressed award too! After 'Haute Couture', we went in front to take photos and congratulate the winners!! Then, me and Wes went to 7-11 buy things... he wants to buy biscuits for me to eat... lol.....

After that we took shuttle bus back to Changi campsite.... on the bus I slept very soundly... so tired... Then before sleeping, I spent time with Wes talking at a dark staircase again... lol... my whole body aching.... and he help me massage my body... =) After that I went to sleep... Zzzz...

Day3:

Today is the last day of camp! I had mixed feelings.... sad that so fast the camp is all over.... but happy that I can go home cuz I miss my bed and my PooH bear!! LoL... after breakfast we took shuttle bus to Jurong west church... and had a session...

Cindy Png preached a sermon on living out our dreams for God... Cindy preached very well! Love her... Then we prayed for campus revival... then after that had Arm wrestling competition!!

Wes represented our house... but lost... cuz the contestants used their body weight instead of following the rules of arm wrestling... play cheat one... but its ok.... Dear you are already the winner in my heart! =)

After that Cindy announced the results.... our house won 3rd place... but its ok... cuz we won alot of prizes already... especially the beauty pageant... and Samuel also won the 'Best Camper' award!! Yay!

After that, we went to Pizza hut... then went home... I miss my home! But I miss Camp X too!... I had alot of fun during the camp... and alot of dark eye rings too... haha...

But most importantly I have grown spiritually stronger during this camp... and I truly want to serve God more and do more things in the Kingdom of God! +

Actually in university I always skip lectures de... since Year 1... lol... partly is also cuz I was very weak that time... but I still do fairly well in exams... This is ok for someone who don't study at all... Lols....

Year 3 was the most stressful de.... the modules are more difficult.. Just checked my results today... and I did ok actually... but one module didn't do very well... Sigh so sad....

But I kinda expected it... cuz for 2 modules I didn't go for lectures at all.... I only attended the first and the last lecture in the whole semester.... Can you imagine it.... lol...

But I spend alot of time on that 2 modules also... Publications Graphics and design and News reporting... But I still get C and D for that... I think its because of my attendance that pulled down my grades... =(

But for the 3 other modules.. I didn't spend much time on them... and I didn't even study for exam... I only studied the night before the paper!! LoLs... Crazy rite.... But I dunno why I never study still can get As and B for the 3 other modules....

Moral of the story is.... I don't need to study!! LoL... I nvr study yet can get As and Bs.. but those modules that I spend alot of time on I got C and D... =.= LoL... kidding la.... Actually the conclusion is I suck at computer skills but Im good in my writing skills....

Though Im quite disappointed with my results.... but I already tried my best... and what I have to do now is to move on.... I place my Future in God's hands... Hope God will lead me from glory to Glory!

And CHC Camp X is next Mon!! WooHoo!! Looking Forward to it!! =)

Dear... I miss you... =(