MY STORY

-* Angeline & Wesley *-
31.12.07- The day our Love story has Just begun
Welcome to My Blog
This is where u see the Real AnGeLiNe
My Hidden world of Secrets & Pain.
A world u'll never understand.
A world where there's so much Beauty in Pain.<3

*PRINCESS*

<3 Angeline*--FallenAngeL--Wes <3
-Look for the girl with the Broken smile`
Goodbyes will always Hurt,
My Memories will always bring Tears.
There's a world inside of me,
That you can never see.<3
Somewhere in this Darkness,
There's a Light I can't find.
Some days in My Life,
Im still struggling to Fight on.
I Long for that Special one,
To Kiss Me in the Pouring rain.`<3
I Long for that day,
When I can finally see the Light...
Take My hand, Hold me when Im scared,
Love me when Im gone...<3
All The Sufferings that we've gone through and am going Through, Love will keep us strong.
Dear, I LOVE YOU.

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Thursday, January 31, 2008

I Love this song ♥... Its about a Man's Love for a girl.... A love so True, so Strong, so Romantic...♥

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If our Love was a Fairy tale

I would charge in and rescue you

On a yacht Baby we would sail

To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies They would look like you

It'd be so Beautiful if that came True

You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus You leave me Breathless

You're everything good in my Life

You leave me Breathless

I still can't believe That you're Mine

You Just walked out of one of my Dreams

So Beautiful you're leaving me Breathless

And if our Love was a story book

We would meet on the very first page

The last chapter would be about

How I'm Thankful for the Life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes

I would fall deeper watching you give Life

You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus You leave me breathless

You're everything good in my Life

You leave me breathless

I still can't believe that you're mine

You Just walked out of one of my Dreams

So Beautiful you're leaving me Breathless

You must have been sent from Heaven to earth to change me

You're like an Angel

The thing that I feel is stronger than Love believe me

You're something special

I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me

But all I can do is try

Every day of my life

Emo Princess

Saturday, January 26, 2008

I feel so sad, so alone. All alone in a big house... darkness surrounds me...

Don't my family care for me at all?.... This emptiness is killing me....

Early in the morning when I wake up, no one is at home already. My sister went out. I msged her and she told me my parents went out early in the morning.... Today I didn't go out with Wes...

So many Tears I cried, when Im all alone.... Now is at night already. And no one is back home. Although I have not been talking to my family for 1 month plus, but their presence is better than nothing....

I msged my sis to ask her where she is... then she tell me my parents not coming back tonight.... and she is staying overnight at a fren's house!!

Oh man... Leave me all alone at home.... My sis never even tell me only after I msged and ask her!!!

Im scared to be alone lor.... so Freaky and Lonely.... Sigh I feel so sad now.... all alone at home..... I Just feel that No one cares at all.

Dear... I miss you... <3

My Beautiful Tragedy-- describes me Perfectly. <3

Emo Princess

This Mask I wear, she serves me well.

She hides my pain, so They can't tell.

They see her smile, never my Tears,

She shows no sorrow, she Fights all my fears.

They believe she is Me, if only They knew,

That she is my mask, my secret too.

My scars she hides, behind Laughter and Lies,

She say's she is fine, but slowly she dies.....

I Hate being Alone. I Hate feeling Alone.

I JUST HATE IT.

No one will ever be able to fully understand what I am going through.

All my struggles and all my Pain,

All my Tears and Fears,

Only God sees it in the secret place.

If only its that easy, I will be healed a long time ago.

But why am I still suffering now?.....

Just because I don't let you see me cry, it doesn't mean I don't.

How I wish I can be normal and Happy again...

Im so sorry dear... <33

Emo Princess

Thursday, January 24, 2008

There's a world inside of me,
That you can never see.
A world of Loneliness, secrets, Pain, fears and Tears.
Somewhere in this darkness,
There's a light I can't find....
And Im still Fighting to walk towards the light.
All the times when I feel so alone,
Sometimes all I need is someone to be there for me.
Sometimes all I need is a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, and a hand to hold.....
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Wes <3:
Ever since you stepped into my life,
You gave my life hope.....
Thinking of you Just brings Tears to my eyes....
Without you, I really can't imagine how life would be like.
I'll be all alone in my world of darkness,
struggling through life... and going through each day aimlessly.
All that I've gone through and am going through now,
All the Pain, all my Hurts,
I'll be able to fight back those tears with your presence...
You give me a little more hope each day...
Even if my whole world falls apart,
Love will see us through.....
This is the Power of Love. <3
Dear, I hope u won ever leave me....
I love you... <3
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My family has not been talking to me for 1 month plus.... do you know how I feel? Everytime I go out with Wes, I feel happy... but everytime when I go home, I'm all alone.... sigh....

I don't feel loved at all by my parents.... sometimes I really envy those pple who have a very good relationship with their parents....

But its ok... all these years, I've already gotten used to being alone and neglected.....

I don't blame them.... I just feel very sad....sigh.

Everyday once I reach home, I'll just go up to my room, and stay in my room all the time in the darkness with just a dim light on....

And I never talk to anyone in my family at all.... sometimes I just feel very sad that things turn out this way.... Sigh...

Everytime Wes is not by my side, I feel so lonely.... Sigh I miss you dear... Besides God, you are the reason that I continue to fight on in life....

I still have struggles everyday, which you can't see.... but life has to go on, no matter how painful it is...

Dear... I know you are now training very hard for ur NS... I'll support you in everything that you do no matter wat.... ur strong spirit has touched me to be a stronger person.... I just hope u don't push yourself too hard.....

I love you dear..... with all my heart. <3

Emo Princess

23th Jan 2008- Wed

Today i had no school.... every Wed is my free day... yay can sleep in le... hahas...

In the evening I met Wes to go swimming.... at first I didn't want to go de... cuz very long never swim le.... but he insisted on me going with him!!

LoL... Wes is such an exercise freak... so fit le still everytime exercise without fail.... Wes going NS soon le.... thats why he wants to train harder to be in 'top form'.... he got selected for NDU.... to be a diver...thats why he wants to go swimming to train up....

At first he wanted to sign on commando de... but he heard that diver is more tough.... so he chose diver instead....

Sigh... Dear... I'll miss you alot alot when you go NS... don be so competitive can... you are already the best.... <3

Its been ages since I last swam... I think the last time I went swimming was like 5 years ago lor.... when I was young I went swimming alot... but as I grew up then more busy le...

Wes bought swimming costume for me.... then we went to yishun swimming complex... the water was so cold... lol.... we swam a few laps... played in the pool also... it was fun... hahas... swimming reminds me of my childhood days... =)

Then went to bathe and changed....after that we went to Northpoint... dear went to eat first then after that we went to watch horror movie ' One missed call'.... the movie theatre was so empty.. only about 6 pple including us.... so freaky... lol.....

The show was so scary la.... I got heart attack many times... lol..... I screamed alot too.... Wes so bad la....keep scaring me.... during the movie still gave me a missed call.... lol... scare me lor....

After the movie I went to the toilet.... when I was in the toilet I heard the tune of the mobile phone in ' One missed call'.... I was very scared lor!! Dear so bad.... he was whistling the tune outside of the toilet to scare me!! And he even gave me a missed call again..... lol.....

After that I tried to give dear missed calls to scare him but couldn't get through many times.... so freaky... I was calling him but his number was busy though he was not using the phone... it turned out that he pressed the button everytime I called!! lol....

Next time I won't watch horror movies le.... especially at night.... so scary... somemore dear always scare me de... lol....

After the movie, we went home.... sigh tmr still got school... Today was fun... I miss you dear.... Love u... <33

Emo Princess

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

To Wes <3:

Dear... I feel very sad... Im very worried for u... I hope you won't get caught... Though u did nothing wrong today.... sigh ...

I know you are very sad that ur friends got caught... but u can't do anything... they are also in the wrong...

I know u are trying very hard to change le.... but I know sometimes u are in a very difficult position too.... On one hand u don't want to get involved in fights, but on the other hand, you cannot reject your frens when they need your help...

I understand how you feel.... No matter what happens, I'll always be here for u... I'll always stand by you, I'll never leave you.... <3

But I hope one day you can totally come out of all these stuff and stop getting involved in fights.... I have already wasted my days of youth away.... and I know you have also wasted yours all these years....

I think its by God's grace that delayed you from reaching the scene earlier... if not you will be involved in the fight and you will surely get caught....

I really don't want that to happen..... I feel very sad and helpless.... cuz I don't know how to help you.....sigh...

I pray that God's protection will always be with you.... and I'll always love you no matter what.... <3

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This morning I was very worried for Wes.... cuz he'll be helping his friends in a fight.... but Thank God he reached the scene late and did not fight.... if not I think he'll surely get caught....

Two of his friends got caught by the police.... and Wes was very sad. I felt very sad too... sigh but they did something wrong.... and like what Wes always says, Everything comes with a price....

Dear, I just hope nothing will happen to you.... sigh...

You shared with me about your past.... and I shared with you mine too..... I know all these years of fighting have become a part of your life.... I understand its hard for you to completely get out of it....

But I believe one day you can surely overcome your past.... Everyone has a Past.... Including me.... All these years I've been through so much....

Both of us each have a different Life story to tell, but one thing that is the same is that we have gone through alot of Pain and Tears, while for you, Pain and bloodshed.....

All these years I've wasted my youth away... I lost many things precious in life.... but like what u said, This is the path I've chose to take in Life... my life story... and there will always an ending....

I've never regretted choosing this path... because all the Tears and sufferings only made me a stronger person.... You can never stand up again unless u fall...

All these years you've been through a lot too.... and I don't wish to see you suffer again... This is the path you chose to take.... and there will always be an ending to every story....

Whatever that happens in the Future, we'll go through them together, through Thick and thin... I hope the days ahead will be better and happier...

Take my hand, Together we'll make it one day. Love ya... <3

Emo Princess

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Mon was the first day of school...semester 2 already... so fast.... its going to be my last semester le.... I can't believe it..... sigh God pls bless me.... +

While on my way to school, SUDDENLY I felt so Alone. Past memories just suddenly flashbacked into my mind.... I felt so alone all of a sudden....

Anyway its very common for me to get flashbacks of the past....

My family has not been talking to me for a very long time le... My closest friends are drifting apart from me... I feel so sad.... sigh I miss Cindy so much.... <33

The closest person to me now is Wes.... <3>

Anyway my first day in school was not so exciting.... because on the first day only schoolwork and projects are piling up....

I have a feeling this semester will be a very very very busy one.... + + sigh.

But its good to be back in school.... at least I won't be alone at home.... and I kinda miss school life too.... lol.... next time won have the chance anymore after I graduate... sigh. =(

And its good to have alot of schoolwork... at least can keep myself busy.... so that I won think too much..... *************************************************

Anyway during my Gem module class today I saw a very very skinny girl.... She reminds me of myself 1 year ago.....

One look I can tell she's anorexic.... I felt so sad.... cuz I can feel her pain.....

I saw the Past me in her... she was exactly like me last time, emaciated looking and depressed. I felt so sad... cuz I know what she is going through. I want to help her, but I dunno how to....

Cuz I know very well anorexics live in denial.... they don't want help from others because they think they don't need help....

Having suffered with anorexia for 6 yrs, I've been through every single pain possible and I know every single thing about this illness inside out....

I also don't know how I recovered... I guessed I just snapped out of it.... 6 years of malnutrition is a very long time... my body just couldn't take the starvation any longer....

In My mind I do not want to recover.... but my body needed to... it had to do something in order to survive... and my eating swung from one extreme to the other extreme.....

Anorexia is not worth it. It nearly killed me.....

I have to admit that till now I am still unwilling to let go fully of it... Im still trapped in my past...I am still struggling through each day-- not with anorexia but a different problem now....

But I've come such a long way.... I've been through so much... and I've survived through it all.... I have faith that God will deliver me and heal me completely one day.... +

I really pray hard that one day that girl will recover too. And to anyone who is suffering too, I hope u'll recover one day......

Recovery is not easy. But it is possible... Pls do not lose hope, u will be in my prayers.... + + +

Emo Princess

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Next week school reopen le...
I can't go out with you that often anymore.... sigh so sad....
I'll miss you..... <3
Ever since you stepped into My life, my world became brighter....
Thank you for your Love and company all these while......
I can't imagine how my life would be without you.
Without you, I'll be all alone in my own world,
Going thru all The Hurts and Pain ALL BY MYSELF.
I'll remember all the precious moments spent with you....
Next week when my school reopens, its time for me to go back to the harsh reality again....
Though we may not be able to see each other as often anymore,
But you will always be in my Heart.... <3>
We may be far in distance, but never in our Hearts,
For our memories span the miles....
I do not know what the Future holds...
But no matter what difficulties that may come our way,
We'll go through them together, Through thick and thin.
I'll never leave you, and I hope you will not either.
Promise me one thing, that u'll never let me go.

I love you.... <3

-For all the times I cried, I just dont think I can live without you.` <3

Emo Princess

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

I hate Myself.

I Hate being alone at home.

I Just Hate it.

God, Pls. I need Your help... + + + +

I Miss You... <3

Emo Princess

Wow I really I can't believe its a brand new year again.. Yr 2008 already..

Time flies man.... My Past had already become Painful Memories to me....

Throughout the years, I have gone thru so much....

And as the years go by, I realised Life is just Like a dream... Life can either be sweet dreams or nightmares at times...

But through it all, God has carried me through.... when I have fallen, He gave me the strength to pick myself up again....

In different seasons of My Life, God send different pple into my world to help me... Through them, I saw the love of Jesus....

Though it hurts me so much that they are not by my side anymore, but I'll never forget them.....

It hurts me so much too that Pple come and go in our lives.... especially those that mean so much to me.

But I've grew to accept it.... Though its hard to stay strong sometimes, but I have to....

Pple may hurt or you, pple may leave u.... But God WON'T.... and He will never Leave nor forsake me....

Everyone may leave me, but I hope one person will not.... because right now its not just friendship anymore.... its a bond between both of us... Love ya... <3

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Yesterday(tue) at around 5 plus, I met Wes at AMK hub..he woke up at only 2 plus in the afternoon lor.... sleep till so late.... LoL.... he went to play pool with his frens...

After that, we went to watch movie... Alien vs Predator 2.... quite nice la.... but we sat 1st row cuz no more seats le... lol after the show my neck so pain.... hahas...

During the movie, Wes gave me his cardigan to cover my legs cuz it was freezing cold..... he said he was not cold and he's wearing singlet somemore.....

Actually he was cold one lor.... but he very MAN.... he gave me his cardigan so I won't feel cold.... <3

After the movie, my dad came to fetch me... and while we were walking to the mrt, suddenly a guy ran past. And another guy was running behind shouting out for pple to catch him....

Wes suddenly let go of my hand, asked me to wait there for him, and ran after the guy.... I got a shock lor.... LOL....

When I ran out of the shopping centre, I saw Wes sitting on top of the guy... and the guy's mouth got blood.....

The guy was a cheater.... apparently he stole someone's IC to sign a handphone line or something....

My hero, you are so brave.... <3

But Wes punched the guy 2 times..... no wonder got blood.... after that when the police took his statement I went off first.....

It seems that eveytime I go out with Wes, something exciting will happen... LoL.... but pls don fight ok.... unless there is no other choice....

You look so MAN and Heroic just now..... Love ya.... <3<3<3

Emo Princess

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

In a blinking of an eye, Year 2007 has passed.Yr 2007 is already the Past.

It seems only yesterday when I countdown to year 2007.

All the memories in Yr 2007, it will always be in my heart.

All that I've gone through, all the Pain and Hurts.

All the ups and downs, my Tears and Fears,

Through Sadness and Joy,

God has brought me through.....

I want to thank the few special pple in my heart...

They have really helped me stay strong during the darkest points of my life.

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Cindy, I'll never forget u. I miss u so much... I'll never be where I am today if not because of you... <3

Beeleng, Thanks for ur love, counsel and forgiveness all these while. Sometimes u may get angry with me, but I know u mean well. Love you lots... <3

Sigh I already feel like crying when I think of the past memories....

Change is part of life, and Goodbyes will always hurt.

You have left footprints in my heart... Though u are not My Cgl anymore, U will always be a special friend to me...

Yr 2007 has been a yr of much changes and heartbreak for me.

It takes much courage to change,

and alot of Willpower to be an overcomer.

All my Tears and Fears, all my Pain and shame, God sees it in the secret place.....

Yr 2007 was not the best year for me, and I hope year 2008 will be a better one.

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Yr 2008, A New year, A new beginning, A new start.

A New Life, A new Love.

31ST DEC 2007-- Im Yours, and You're mine.

I hope in Yr 2008 and the years ahead we will be able to spend more happy times together, through Thick and Thin, through sorrow and Joy.

Wes, No matter what, I'll always be here for you.

We are two different persons, but one mind and soul.

I hope there will never come a day when we have to say Goodbye.

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In the yr 2008, May God take me to Greater Heights, and bring me from glory to Glory..... <3

God, I trust My Life and Future unto You... +

Emo Princess