I love Jeanette Aw the most!! She's so pretty and cute.. so Talented and can dance very well!! Jessica and Dawn also very pretty... I love all of them!! <3

The guy actors all also very cute and shuai... especially Tianbao in the show... and Elvin Ng... <3

Rhythm Of Life 《变奏曲》 - Synopsis

Rhythm of Life portrays that.. a decision made by a single person leads to the changes in the lives of those around him.

This show is so sad... God gave a second chance and Time was rewinded so that Junjie (Christopher Lee) could save Zhiling who died (Jessica Liu)... but in the end 5 people died... and They are all my favourite stars! Sigh... So sad... =(

Anyway, I love Jeanette Aw.... she's so pretty... I love Dawn too... she's so cute!! <3

As I've mentioned in my previous post, we quarrelled quite badly in church yest and left quite quickly after service... actually its nothing serious... but Wes don like me talking to other guys...

When he saw me talking to Tomi, He walked towards me, stared at me and took my hand. Then, he pulled out my ring from my finger and just walked off.... lol very drama rite....

Then he motioned with his finger asking me to follow him... and at the church staircase he shouted very loud... and punched the wall.... I was very sad.... cuz he hurt his hand... sigh.... Then we took cab to sembawang.....

Do you know.... I really felt like crying when I saw his hand trembling.... and when he's in pain.... sigh... and he did everything using one hand only cuz his other hand injured... I see him like that my heart so pain... ='(

And throughout the journey we didn't talk at all... do u know how much that hurts... in the end I didn't go to Wes's fren wedding dinner with him... cuz I was not wearing formal.... Wes gave me money took cab home.... when I went home I still felt very sad... I still love him alot...

Then at nite Wes called me... He sounded v drunk... and kept repeating the same things over and over again.... He keep saying he loves me, ask me not to leave him.... said he can't live without me... he's very afraid to lose me....

At first I found it very funny when he keep repeating "I love you" and other things to me... but after a while, when he started to talk abt more things, I just felt so sad that I cried...

Tears just kept flowing.... sigh.... cuz he said the moment he said he wants to break up he regretted it... and was really scared that I would really leave him..... and he keep asking me to forgive him.....

The next day... my eyes were abit swollen lor... shucks... but I was surprised Wes remembered what he said that night... he even remember that I cried... =.=

Dear... I love you very very much... and Forever... I have already forgiven you even before you asked me to.... I will never ever leave you.... I love you... Till the day I die.. Even after I die, I'll still be with you Forever in Heaven....

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After that we went to shop around a bit then went home... I didn't go to meet Wes at East coast park cuz very late already... I miss you alot dear dear... <3

I'm trying very hard to be strong... Its not easy putting on a strong front when your heart is totally shattered.

Just because U don't see me cry, it doesn't mean I don't. And just because I don't say a thing, it doesn't mean my heart don't feel a thing.

Harsh words hurt feelings. But silence breaks hearts.

Those words that you said... it really hurt my feelings... but I tried very hard to hold back those Tears. I just feel so lost... and sad. Its like.... you have changed.. since the time I knew you at the start.

Where there is Love, there is always Pain.

Do you know how much my heart hurt when you smashed your hand against the wall? I would rather you hurt me than hurt yourself....

Do you know how hard was it to fight back those Tears after hearing what you said....

Despite all these, I still love you.... Afterall, Love hopes all things, believes all things, bears all things, and Endures all things.

The moment I was not with you, Tears just flowed down right away. I just don't let pple see me cry.

When I'm alone, No one hears me cry.

When the day comes when I cry in front of you, that will be the day when you hurt me the most.

Very Often the people we love the most end up hurting us the most. This is very True. Don't just say you love me. Prove it. Actions speak louder than words.....

Also, Pls think twice the next time when you say you want to break up. Because don't wait till its too late for regrets when someone is no longer with you.

When the day comes when you miss me but Im already gone, don't regret as it is you who left me with a broken heart.

I don't even know how I'm feeling now. I don't want to think about it also. Thinking about it just makes me even more sad. Give me a few more days...... I 'll get over it.

I'll still say.... I love you with all my heart. And I'll wait for you when you go into NS. Till the day when you learn how to treasure me, I will always be here for you.

What you see on the outside, is a strong girl. But on the inside of me, I'm fighting a battle everyday.

There are just some things I can't say. And there are just some things U'll never understand.

Don't let my smile fool you.

You gotta mouth like a razor-blade, it cuts so deep. So kiss my wrists my neck and give me eternal sleep.

I'm hoping on the day that all the Pain runs right out of my finger tips ; I can't take this anymore.

I'm in pain. I can't do this anymore. But I can't stop.

I'm struggling within me. This cruel world is tearing me apart. I'm ruining my body.

Just cause her eyes don't Tear
Doesn't mean her heart don't cry
& Just because she appears strong
Doesn't mean that nothing's wrong.

And though she's got so much to say, she bottles it all up inside. If you look past her broken eyes, To a shadow no one sees, a disguise so you won't recognize, The girl is really me.

What Hurts The Most

Was Being So Close

& Having So Much To Say

& Watching You Walk Away.

For a very long time we never quarrel le till today... and somehow I just feel its the devil thats trying to break up my family again... But the devil will not succeed... because God will give us the power to overcome the devil!!!

Yesterday during cg also quarrelled with Wes... and it was a BIG quarrel not a small one... sigh don wanna talk abt it but just feel very sad and hurt...

Though he was VERY VERY fierce, actually I was not really scared cuz Im already used to alot of verbal and physical abuse in the past... thats why now I still can take it... Wes shout so loud and was literally burning with fury...lols... but after a while he cooled down le and said sorry...

Dear No matter what, I still love you...

I cant blame him too... this is his nature.. just hope he can slowly change... somemore last time I was also very hot tempered like him... seriously... when I shout, the whole neighbourhood can hear me one... lols... and when Im angry I will become very violent too....

Today's service I thought of the past... how my mum always hit and scold me last time... my days were really filled with fighting and quarelling with my family in the past...

Now, I just hope God will heal the relationships in my family.... and bring love and reconcilation and happiness to my family.... I believe God will answer my prayers...

And I also hope.... that my relationship with Wes will grow stronger and closer day by day even though we may quarrel at times... for it is not only the happy moments, but the ups and downs that make a relationship.... † †

Can't be helped.... since young I don like to study.... so its really amazing I made it so far... I can't believe that I actually survived 3 years of university... all the last min studying, the Neverending assignments and projects, all the times I was so stressed and felt like giving up.... God pulled me through in the end...

I think I will miss school life.... but I won't miss all the projects and exams... haha... but Im soon gonna step into another phase of my life... that is stepping into the market place to work... I dunno how the future will be like... but I just hope that God will make a way for me...

Anyway, after so long my exams finally over.... finally can take a break from the monster schoolwork.... Woohoo!! Haha... but seriously, I will miss school... =(