Met Wes at Vivo city then we took monorail to Sentosa... then stopped at Palawan Beach. When we were walking to Palawan Beach, it started to rain...

Lols... I quickly use towel to cover my head. Then we went to the shelter first and play games with our cg.... soon the rain stopped and we can play games again... Yay! =)

The games were very fun... There were 10 stations in total... the sun was like so hot but dunno why I can't seem to get tanned! =(

Sigh.... But Im also very sad.... cuz Wes got injured at a station... the "Bishi Bashi" station... sigh he stepped on a nail.... I feel so pain for him....

Sigh dunno why he always get injured one. Then for the rest of the games he was like limping but he still continued playing and running.... sigh....

At the end, both Teams in our cg won a prize!! Our Team won the "Most Encouraging Team" award and the other Team from our cg won overall 3rd prize and got Ben and Jerry vouchers.... Well done N402!! =)

After that, I went to bathe... Then our cg went to Vivo City for dinner... Then after that me and Wes went to walk ard... he bought a cute doggie Toy for me. SooOo cute! Thanks dear dear... <3

Then after that, we took cab home... cuz Wes can't really walk.... Sigh I see him limping and in pain my heart really very very Pain... Haiz... Dear I hope you get well soon.... I see you like that I feel very sad.... =(

I miss my dear dear.... last week only meet him 2 times.... cuz I've been very busy with school.... sigh so stressed....

Today Wes went to see doc to get a jab for his leg.... Sigh I hope the wound recovers soon....

And Today.... when I was getting ready to go school, my sis call me say the cat outside our house die already.... I got a shock.... So sad... Poor Tabby....

Tabby is actually a stray cat but she always comes to our house because we always feed her food... we used to have 2 cats, Summer and Tabby...

Summer is our precious cute baby cat that stays in our hse and Tabby is the stray cat that stays outside our doorstep.... But now... Tabby die already.... Dunno why suddenly die... so poor thing....

But actually since last time she was already very sickly.... always coughing and sneezing.... but I think it was because of us who always feed her thats why she still survived....

But now she's gone.... So sad la.... Haiz... her limp body was outside our hse... so scary... Poor Tabby rest in peace.... + + +

My dad so brave.... he disposed the dead Tabby's body when he came home.... Lol I don't even dare to look at it... Now our hse only got summer left.... hope my baby summer cat will stay healthy...

Sigh Tmr still got school.... VERY VERY STRESSED..... So little time, but so much work!!! God, pls help me to Endure the last 3 weeks of school... + + +

I think I'll miss school after I graduate... but I won't miss the schoolwork... Hahas....

Dear.... I Miss you very very much... Im very sad you got injured... Haiz... Get well soon kae... Love you loads. <3

The drama titled 'I-Ming" at Expo was very very very Touching and nice.... even nicer than the drama at Jurong West....

The drama is about an invention which can allow one to go back to his/her past.... but you cannot change the past... only can relive the memories and replay the scenes of the past....

So sad... It reminded me of my Past lor... If only I can go back to my past, it'll be so good.... Though it is a Painful and sad one....

The drama team acted very well.... and my idol is acting inside too!! Andrea is so pretty and talented.... can act, sing and dance... I like her alot... =)

The drama is abt a guy who cannot forget about his Past... he couldn't forgive the girl who had hurt him... and thus he was full of hatred and bitterness.... Till one day he met Jesus... and his whole life was turned around...

He went back to the time of Jesus... and saw how Jesus died on the cross for mankind.... how Jesus forgave us for our sins... and Jesus also spoke to him to forgive the girl he love and release all his hurts to God...

The ending was the most Touching.... That I cried... In the end the guy forgave the girl (Andrea) who had hurt him in the past... but he still love her alot... and in the end They were together again....

The moral of the story is... To let go of the past, don't let the past haunt us... because it is a Painful thing... We must let go of any unforgiveness ... only then we will experience the full blessings of God in our lives...

In the end, the guy came up with a new invention instead... called I-Vision... which enables one to look into the future instead and Envision themselves to be what they can be to their Fullest Potential...

This drama is very sad and also very meaningful... It reminds me of my Past... which I have not fully let go of....

My Past has shaped me to be what I am today. Though My Past is a dark and Painful one, it had made me a stronger person. And I will never choose to change anything about it.

I Believe, and I hope, My Future will be filled with God's Glory. For The greater the Fall, The Greater the Glory. <3

God is able to Heal Me. God will Heal Me and set me Free completely one day.

God will see me Through Every storm and suffering in My Life.

With God, I can do more than Just survive. I can really Live.

I am a winner in Christ. I am the Head and not the Tail, Above and not beneath.

God has a Great Destiny for My Life. <3

God will give me the Power and the strength to accomplish the Impossible.

I can Do Great works for the Kingdom of God. + +

I can do ALL Things through Christ who strengthens Me. <3

I will grow from glory to Glory, strength to Strength.

I am an OVERCOMER, and Im MORE THAN A CONQUEROR!! <3

"For God knows the Thoughts He think towards Me, Thoughts of Hope and not of evil, to give me a Future and a Hope."

*** Dear, I hope The Future will be better with you by my side... You gave me Hope and a reason to Live on. I hope we will Last Long, and Forever. Love you.... <3

Haiz... I already tried my best to invite Wes's frens for Easter svc... but They all last minute don want to come.... Sigh so disappointed. =(

Its ok, Never say die. And Never Give up...God can still use me to do Great works for Him! + + +

Today went to JW church for svc for the 2nd time... sat at 1st row of slope... so it was rather near to the stage...

The Anointing was very strong... Tho I watched the drama for the 2nd time, but I'll never get bored of it... and it was so Touching and sad that I cried... especially when Jesus was being whipped and beaten and crucified....

Our cg also had some new friends... and I talked to them... but towards the end of the svc they all suddenly left... so disappointing lor.... Haiz....

Then our cg went to coffeeshop opposite church to eat.... and while walking there, my sandals broke.... so sway... lols... Then sara went to buy for me a new pair while I waited under the shelter from the rain... Thanks sara!! =)

Hahas... and while waiting, I saw my ex-CGL Beeleng with her cg... she came forward to talk to me.... I Miss her so much!!

Just now Nicole passed me a book Beeleng bought for me from Expo Attributes booksale.... Its titled "Hope, Help and Healing for Eating disorders"... so Touched.... She actually Thought of me....Thanks so much Beeleng... <3

Thinking back, Last time Cindy also gave me a book on Eating disorders before... so Touched lor... cuz these books really know what sufferers are going through.... Sigh miss Cindy alot also.... =(

Then, I went to meet Wes after that... met him at sembawang first then went to Orchard. Wes ate dinner first, then we went to buy movie tickets... But the tickets for " Sky of Love" was all sold out!! Haiz.... so sad.... I've been wanting to watch that movie for very long le.... =(

So no choice, we didn't watch movie... So we went back home... we alighted at Yio Chu kang then Wes walked me back home... as it as still early, we went to a playground in my estate and sat down...Sat there and Talked, listened music till 11 plus pm then went home...

Sorry dear if I made u angry... Sigh... I have my own struggles too... I love u alot alot kae... even Tho I don't do some things you want me to... Sorry la... you also must quit all ur bad habits can... Very bad for health.... Haiz...

And dear dear u bite my thumb so pain sia.. sob sob... but Im not scared one la... Im not scared of Pain de... Hahas.... After that Wes walked me back home... I miss you alot dear dear... Tmr u still go work... Love you loads.. <33

cuz Assignments and Projects are Neverending!!!!! ....

I can't take it anymore.... My brain gonna explode liao..... LoLs....

Haiz.... God pls pls give me the strength and wisdom I need so much.... + + +

Btw... Easter is coming!! <33.... and I miss you dear dear!! =( *TEARS* * sob sob*

The remaining mixture I went to dye my hair for fun.... oh man in the end my hair become golden blonde colour!! Almost the colour of yellow..... Shit.... lols.... My hair is a DISASTER man... look like Ah lian now.... =.=

Last time even worse... I bleached my hair till blonde yellow color before.... and everywhere I go, I surely stand out of the crowd because of my hair.... =.=

Haiz... I want to dye my hair back to darker shades also cannot.... cuz dye too much in a short time will damage the hair... and my hair is already damaged enough. =X

Haiz..... I hope when I go back to school tomorrow, pple will not keep looking at me.... But my friend sure say I look very 'Lian' one..... =.= ... HAIZ....

Anyway... yesterday Wes lost his wallet in sembawang... we were sitting under the void deck... Then only when we walked back to the MRT then he realised that his wallet was gone... and when we ran back to look for it... it was already gone....

His wallet contains his I/C which will cost him $300 if he makes a new one cuz he lost his I/C before 2 times already.... Wes was v angry and disappointed also.... I accompanied him to the police station to make a report on the loss of his wallet....

And also.... on the way back, I asked him to pray that someone will return his wallet.... and somehow I just feel that he will get his wallet back... but Wes don't believe me..... =.=

Today morning, Wes's mum msged me... and told me that Wes's wallet has been found!! Hahas.... God really answers Prayers.... and told you I have sixth sense.... Really lor... somehow I just have the feeling that his wallet will be returned to him.... and it really did! Hahas... =)

So Wes don't need to waste $300 making a new I/C again... all Thanks to my Prayers.... Hahas DEAR you can spend the money on movies and buying Pooh bears for me le kae..... lols kidding la..... =)

In the evening, we went to watch movie at AMK hub... "The Spiderwick Chronicles"... it is a very nice show... so cool... if only I can live in a world of adventure and Fantasy too... =)

After the movie, Wes met up with some of his friends... then after that went home le... Tmr still got school... so Tired already... Dear dear I miss you... <33

Sigh but I have no complaints.... I have no choice but to Endure.... 2 more months left to the end of the semester.... sigh Time really flies....

Being busy is good in a way.... it helps to numb all my emotions.... helps me to forget my hurts and problems temporarily.... helps me to forget the emptiness and loneliness Im feeling inside...

And I just keep myself busy till its late at night, sleep, and its a new day again.... seriously, sometimes I don't feel like waking up..... because Reality Hurts. Really, Life is Beautiful only when you learn to Love Pain. <3

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Today... I saw an anorexic girl in my school.... by the way, so far I've already seen quite a number in my school... Whenever I see them, I can't help but feel so sad.... I will be literally crying inside....

And the one I saw today reminds me of myself in the past.... which is not very long ago... abt 1 and a half years ago....

She is so skinny... Just like a walking skeleton. And her face looks so depressed.... and a girl was holding her hands and praying for her. This sight really reminds me of my PasT .... last time my CGL used to pray for me quite often also...

I could really feel her pain.... I only can hope.... that she will recover one day... I don't even know how I recovered.... seriously I don't know why I even recovered when I didn't want to at all... I can only say.... its God that Healed me.... and I hope one day she will be healed too...

When I was in year 2, I saw that same anorexic girl before.... and at that time, I was even skinnier than her. I can't imagine.... she is so emaciated now already but I was even worse last time. That time when I saw her.... I thought to myself... "She's my kind."

But now..... I'm not 'her kind' anymore.... sometimes I hate myself for losing the willpower I once had.... But now I realise.... I want to be Thin....not anorexic.... because its really not attractive at all.... and it nearly cost me my life....

But sometimes anorexia is not all about food and weight only. Its about self-control and discipline..... and I really want to have that again. I MUST have Control and Discipline again.... + + + +

Haiz tomorrow is Saturday. But I still need to go school..... sigh I'll be missing out on my Beauty sleep.... So much work to do but so little time.... sigh how I wish I can just have time to slack and relax man....

Lols... seriously Im not the 'study type' of girl......lols.... Im going to sleep soon.... It's a long day again ahead of me Tomorrow....

AND.... I miss you dear... <33 :(

* I MUST have CONTROL and DISCIPLINE again. I MUST. <3

I smile to hide the Pain, But it'll only lasts a moment. The Pain will still be there.

If TEARS will make me pretty, then I'd be the PRETTIEST girl.

You'll never know all the times I felt so alone, in mY own world... I wonder... will I even have a Future?... My Future looks so bleak.... No matter how smart I am... I am still trapped in my struggles, and I'll never be truly happy.....

Maybe if one day something bad happens to me, my parents will care again. Maybe then I will get the attention I need. Maybe.

You'll never know how it feels to come home everyday, To feel so alone and unloved. It really Hurts....

There's a girl in my mirror,
Shes crying Tonight,
And nothing I can do,
Will make her alright.

One of the worst feelings in the world is Loneliness.

To my dear dear:

You are the best thing that have ever happened to Me.... When I'm with you, I am happy.... But whenever we part, I'll start to miss you.... How I wish we never have to say Goodbye. I may not see you everyday, but you have never left my heart and mind... I Love you always... <33

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I pray for God to give me the wisdom to Fight the challenges of Tommorow, and the Strength to Endure the storms of the days ahead.... + + + + + +

I am so happy for them.... and so proud of them too!! Since F.I.R stepped into the entertainment industry years back, I already fell in love with their songs.... and everytime when I go KBOX, I sure sing their songs..... Hahas....

But now I like them even more... cuz F.I.R is so cool and hip and their songs are so Touching.... I wanna buY their cd.... Hahas.... F.I.R is my idol... and My *Inspiration*!!..... so Talented, so on Fire for Christ, and at the same time, Impacting souls in the Entertainment world.... <33