-* Angeline & Wesley *-
31.12.07- The day our Love story has Just begun
Welcome to My Blog
This is where u see the Real AnGeLiNe
My Hidden world of Secrets & Pain.
A world u'll never understand.
A world where there's so much Beauty in Pain.<3
<3 Angeline*--FallenAngeL--Wes <3
-Look for the girl with the Broken smile`
Goodbyes will always Hurt,
My Memories will always bring Tears.
There's a world inside of me,
That you can never see.<3
Somewhere in this Darkness,
There's a Light I can't find.
Some days in My Life,
Im still struggling to Fight on.
I Long for that Special one,
To Kiss Me in the Pouring rain.`<3
I Long for that day,
When I can finally see the Light...
Take My hand, Hold me when Im scared,
Love me when Im gone...<3
All The Sufferings that we've gone through and am going Through, Love will keep us strong.
Dear, I LOVE YOU.
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Sunday, September 30, 2007
U really left a Deep & Permanent Scar in My HearT. I Really didn't expect You to be like that.
U Just Left silently without a single word..........
Why must u Hurt Me? I really Don't understand.'
Do u Know Im suffering in siLence?
My Heart is grieving Everyday.........
And I feel so sad.
I don't know what I can do now.
I will be Strong........ altho it is hard for me to Move on.
This Pain will Always Remain.
Love starts with a smile, Grows with a Kiss, and ends with a TeardroP.
Love Really HurTs so Much.
I don't know How does Love Feels like anymore, But I will Try my best to Forget you.
How I wish u loved me Like how I Loved you.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
I just got the urge to blog, cuz I suddenly Feel something. Lol....
Very often I seek for Love, for attention, from Pple ard me. But Everytime, The pple who Hurt me most are always the ones I Love mosT. If they didn't mean alot to me, I wouldn't even feel a thing if they Hurt Me.
Now I realised... only God's love is Everlasting and True......
God still loves me even when everyone else forsakes me.
God still loves me even when I don't love myself.
God is with me all the time, even During my Times of Tribulations and sufferings.
I am Really Thankful to God for being with Me during all the times I felt Like Giving up... God didn't give up on Me even when I gave up on Myself.. God didn't give up on me even when everyone else did.
God, Thank you for taking Me thru all the storms in My life, For walking with me Through My Darkest times............
During the times when I felt so alone, unloved and unwanted, YOU were there with Me.
During the times when I felt like dying, U gave Me Strength in My spirit.
" Even Though I Walk through the Darkest Valleys of the shadows of Death, I shall Fear no Evil, For God is with Me......"
I know, the road ahead is Not going to be easy for me. There are Many times when I feel like giving up and ending it all. But God, I Pray You will Give Me the Strength To FighT On to The very End.....+ + + +
PSALMS 91-- Beeleng asked Me to read this.
God says, " He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him."
God, I place all My Hurts, my Burdens, my Worries, my sickness, my Life into Your Hands...PLs help Me to be strong, pls give Me courage......
Beeleng always tells me this, " For all the Sufferings I have gone through, God will give Me back Double Blessings......"+ + + + + + +
God, I want to walk hand in hand with You through This Narrow Way Forever........ Pls Heal My Broken Heart, My Broken life.... Take away all My Pain, mY sickness, and restore to me Hope once again.....
I really don't know when was the last Time I really Felt Happy.. all I can say is That I ONCE was a Happy little girL.........
Tho now I am struggling Thru each day, and every day Im Fighting a battle, But I Believe God will pull Me Thru... + + + +
I know the road ahead is not going to Be easy For me, I know I will be going Thru many Tribulations, But I Pray That My Faith in God will Not be shaken.....
God, pls HeaL all My Hurts, All My Pain, and Restore My soul Once More...
Sorry for the times when I Felt like Giving up, The Pain is really too much For me to bear.. But despite That, God, You did not Forsake Me... + + + + +
Abba Father, I will Trust You ALways, I will Never Let You Down.....<3<3<3<3
" For God knows the Thoughts He thinks towards Me, Thoughts of Peace and not of evil, To Give me a Future and a Hope...." + + + +
Beeleng, Thanks for always being there For Me To Lend Me a Listening ear.... Thanks For all Your advice and Teachings.....
Cindy, Thank you For all The love and care u have shown Me during the time in N248, u really Touched my HearT... I will not ever Forget You..... I really Miss u Cindy..... =( I love You!!! <3<3<3
I Love both of my CGLs............ <3<3<3>
Saturday, September 22, 2007
| Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman |
 And your intensity for life is what attracts most of the men you date You also like to Party - and quite often you're the Life oF the Party You've brought the best of your younger years with you... at least most of the time. |
| You Are 68% Emo |
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| Your Heart is Feeling Broken |
 You are in Deep Despair, and sometimes it Feels like you Will Never Love again. Your HearT may be at its Lowest point right now. Things can only get better from here. Deep down, your Heart is susceptible to: Being swept away by the wrong person Your current outlook on Love: You find yourself wondering if Love is ever worth it Your love life will improve if you: Take a lot of steps back. You're in no shape to fall in love right now. Watch out for: Anyone who may try to take advantage of your Fragile state. |
| Your Love Life Secrets Are |
 You've been Deeply Wounded in the Past, and you're still Recovering from That HurT. It's important to you That your Lover is very attractive. You like to have someone To show off. In Fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the Storm. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always Think Things are Going Well. |
Thursday, September 20, 2007
These Wounds wonT seem To Heal, This Pain is Just Too Real...
No one sees my silenT Tears, No one Hears my secreT Fears, I cry ALone, and Nobody Hears
Every cut I make, iTs not Deep enough. Every Thing I do, iTs not Good Enough
Im silent & Holding back the Pain
Another Forced smile, Another Broken HearT, Im Just another girl wishing Life would restarT
My Heart is Broken Torn in Two my World Has Fallen Apart On The outside I’m Crying, sTill barely hanging ouT But on the Inside I’m bleeding, already Gone
One cut for The way I Look One cut for How u HurT Me One cut for Eating One cut for Throwing iT up One cut for My Lack oF willPower One cuT for My Lack oF conTroL One cut for How mucH I Miss u
I hide mY Tears behind a smile No one knows The Pain I'm Going Through I crY Myself To sleep, All alone. YeT I somehow make iT Through each Day The cuTs Heal & The scars will go awaY But The Pain Always Remains. And My Memories will never Fade
I've gone Thru So much Pain. So many nights, so many Tears I've cried. So many Cuts I've had To Hide I know how iT Feels like To want To die How iT Hurts To Just smile How To Try and Fit in buT can’T How I HurT Myself on The ouTside Just To try to kill the HurTs on the inside
To My daddy & Mummy:
Your Perfect little girl shouted at you nightS Bk. Your Perfect little girl Talked back To you again. Your perfect little girl cries Herself To sleep. Your perfect little girl CuTs her wrists. Your perfect little girl was Broken by a boy. Your perfect little girl Hates Herself. Your perfect little girl Feels like Giving up Your perfect little girl wants To run away from Home. Your perfect little girl has very Few friends. Your perfect little girl is sufferinG. Your perfect little girl has a Perfectly broken HearT. Your perfect little girl disobeys you. Your perfect little girl Locks herself in her room all the Time. Your perfect little girl Feels unwanted. Your perfect little girl Needs Love. Your perfect little girl Attempted suicide. Your perfect little girl has FalleN. Your perfect little girl Needs Your Attention.I Just wanT to say.....Im sorry. You have not been Talking to me For days and weeks...I Feel so ALone. Im Sick of crying, Tired of Trying.. I'm smiling But inside I'm dying.
I’m sorry if I’m giving up too easily I Just don’t have the strength To Fight anymore. I Still Love you...No matter How much u've HurT mE.
Beeleng, Thanks For Telling me this...... " My Heavenly Father will take care oF Me always even iF mY earthly Father doesn'T....." + + + +
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
I'm so Tired of Crying myselF to sleep,I'm so Tired of cutting my wrists so deep, I'm so Tired of no one knowing These Feelings in which I Keep................
I CanT sTand the Pain, I CanT make it go away.
Should I cuT or Take the Pain? The dripping blood or Just Plain shame? The sharpened knife or Falling Tears? The scars or all the Fears? Is he worth it, Is it True? Or is he already over Me?
I Feel so ALone
I donT matter to anyone.
You Really Hurt me and Im Trying not to show iT
But The cuTs speak For Themselves.
Pain Engraves Such a Deep Memory.
You'll never know how many Times I've cried.
How many cuts I Hide.
How many Times I wished I would Die.
Lines on my wrist, cracks in my HearT
When you lefT me my world Fell Apart
BuT I will be StronG even withouT you.
The hardest Kind oF Depression To Treat
Is The one You can'T see
They're the smiling ones
The ones who look PerfecT
The ones who are Laughing
The ones who are Dying inside
The ones who seem Happy
Those are the ones who need Help The mosT
Because you can'T Tell That They're Sad
Scars can never be healed, only Hidden
Having Them on The outside is Just a way oF Hiding The ones within
Scars--A reminder of Reality, A Reminder of My Pain
Cuts become wounds
Wounds become scars
Scars become Memories...........
Friday, September 14, 2007
Why? Why musT u HurT Me?
U told me u love Me, u told Me u wanted to be wiTh Me.
I Tot u were differenT from other pple. I was wrong, so so wronG.
U broke my HearT.... U hurT mY FeelinGs..... U lied To me.....BuT u made me see the Real U....
Im really sad and disappointed, BuT I will be sTrong.
Its hard For me to Forget abT this, but I will prove To u I can be Strong even without u........... and I Deserve Better.
This is a period of Heartbreak For me, but The Fact is LiFe MusT still go on.... No matter wat, I wish u all the Best.
"....And I saw it in your face, You were gonna be the one to break me."
Now I know, Where There is Love, There is PaiN...... + + + + +
Friday, September 07, 2007
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
RighT now, I Just Feel Totally upset...very very sad.... ReJected.....Forsaken....ALL aLone..... I really Miss Her.... BuT I FeeL angry Too.... & aLL I can do is bottle up my Anger & Feelings and Pretend Im Fine........ ALL I can do is hide iN mY Room and crY..... Will anyone understand How I Feel? No one Can Ever Will. On wed Nite, Cindy came my house. cuz she fetched my sis home and wanted To Talk To my mum abT her results........... I was Feeling so upset cuz my sis can Go ouT with Cindy and her cg while Im all alone feeling Left out...Its so damn UnFair la.... =( After that, Cindy came up To my room...... Sorry Cindy.... That I refused to look at u, Talk To u.... I was Feeling disappointed Thats Y.... But do u know in my HearT how I wish I can look in ur eyes and Tell u how much I miss You.... No Matter waT, u will always be in My hearT.......<3<3<3> I still remember Last Time how Cindy helped me so mucH....Whenever I got beaten by my parents or Get chased ouT oF My hse, she will always be There For me.... During The Time when I was still strugging with My eating disordeR, she was always so willing To stay with me at my hse Till late at NighT JusT to watch me eat........ When I goT chased ouT, she wiLL leT me stay Her House..... Cindy, u showed Me a Love so GreaT That I saw Jesus in you.....<3 In my hearT, You have such an ImpT place......Now u are noT my CGL anymore, Naturally I Feel very very very very sad... Words really can't express the sadness in my HearT At all..... Cindy, u told me that Im not in ur CG cuz I never change at all under u... which is so not True AT all....I think in The CG the person who changed The mosT is ME.... I want To tell u, U have changed my LiFe.... U made me see True Love.... Thanks For sacrificing all Your Time and Energy For Me.....I really Appreciate iT.... In My HearT, u will always be My dearest CGL, Teacher, and Fren.... Im very sad that u are noT my CGL anymore...... BuT I can'T do anythinG To make myselF Feel Better, or change anyTHing...The Pain in My HearT HurTs so much so much....... Those memories oF how u helped me and spend Time with me are Really Very Precious To me... Cindy I really Treasure and Love u aloT... U Will always be my spiriTual MenTor, & Im Eternally GrateFul to U.... + + + Cindy, I miss you...... I Really Do.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
